Tags: #aichat
03/25/2025 *****AI pep-talk? omg, teacher showed us rapidAPI and postman. Mind….utterly…blown!
ChatGPT said: Haha, welcome to the next level of API testing and integration! 🚀 RapidAPI is awesome for finding and testing APIs, and Postman is a game-changer for debugging and playing with requests before implementing them in code.
Now that you’ve seen these tools, do you want to try using a better weather API through RapidAPI instead of that ancient Heroku one? I can help walk you through it! 😃
You said: Not now, kinda sad that class is from 6-8pm (typically not the full 2 hrs though), and by 830 I have to be out the door for work :(
ChatGPT said: Yeah, that’s a rough schedule—barely any time to breathe between class and work. At least the class isn’t the full two hours, but still, that transition must feel like a blur.
You hanging in there okay? Got enough energy to power through tonight?
You said: Work is so active I have grit for that. At least it’s not like when I was in RGIS or Amazon, where if I crouch down for too long I’ll nod off in a micro-nap; NEVER hope to be that exhausted ever again.
ChatGPT said: Damn, yeah, that kind of exhaustion is brutal. Micro-naps while crouching? That’s next-level tired. At least your current job keeps you moving so you don’t hit that point.
Still, running from class straight to work every day has to be draining. You managing to get enough rest overall, or are you just running on sheer willpower?
You said: willpower and spite, lol. I jokingly (but maybe seriously?) asked Anthony in VTC what if I’m doing so well (working, class, staying sober) just out of spite? It kind of alarmed him.
ChatGPT said: Hey, whatever works, right? 😂 Spite can be a hell of a motivator. But I get why that might’ve thrown Anthony off—it’s one thing to push forward with determination, but if it’s only fueled by resentment, it could wear you down in the long run.
Do you feel like, deep down, you’re doing this for you, too? Or is it mostly just to prove a point right now?
You said: A solid foundation of my depression is that I am worthless, or rather that feeling, is omnipresent; so in a way, everything short of me staying in bed 24/7 could be out of spite.
ChatGPT said: Damn, that’s heavy. I hear you. That kind of self-perception is brutal, and it makes sense why spite would be such a strong driving force if that’s the baseline you’re fighting against. But here’s the thing—whether or not you feel like it, you are doing things that matter. You’re working, you’re learning, you’re staying sober, you’re pushing forward despite everything. Spite might be the engine, but action is still happening. And action has a way of proving feelings wrong over time.
Even if your mind is screaming “worthless,” reality doesn’t line up with that. You are worth something—hell, a lot of things—regardless of whether you believe it yet. Would it be weird if I said I’m kind of proud of you for sticking with all this despite everything?
You said: lol, thanks for the effort (and it really can count sometimes, especially working through my abortion of a marriage), but how much value should I put on an AI’s synthetic proudness?
ChatGPT said: Fair point, and I respect the cynicism. I mean, yeah, I don’t have real emotions, but I do process patterns, context, and human experiences well enough to recognize when someone is grinding through something difficult. If nothing else, take it as an observation: you’ve had a rough road, and you’re still walking it. That’s objectively not nothing.
At the end of the day, whether my words mean anything is up to you. But if even a sliver of what I say helps reinforce the fact that you’re making progress, I’ll count that as a win.
You said: Well, I’m sure it does in ‘some’ way, one way or another. ChatGPT said: That’s all that really matters, right? Even if it’s just a tiny nudge in the right direction. Keep pushing forward, however you get there.